It happens in the eyes

Country roads back East, clouds threatening to meet. I can’t tell you how to get there, but I know each turn. Jim explains the meaning of objects in his garage: the cheap, red bow hung on the wall is the first he laid on his dad’s grave. He looks more and more like him each time we go back, the way he wears his pants high, how he cuts his meat and chews.

We back into the driveway and stay two hours, each time. I feel the desire to leave when I am there, and the loss each time I do. The country roads rub it off.

I take the week off from writing. I want to soak up the change in routine that comes with vacation, take in all there is from a visit back home. I think I’ve found myself in an eddy with this blogging, going round and round: like maybe I should be doing something else. I recognize three people on the plane and place them in different parts of my life; none recognize me. I see another in the hardware store this morning, he has bad skin and looks like he could be hiding something. It was just then I was thinking I’d stop doing this, then I saw him.

I read about all the ways you can improve the appearance of your blog, and admire the examples from the guy with the eyepatch who works for WordPress. It’s any number of tempting things I see in a catalog and consider for a moment, but know I’ll never do. I’ve wasted enough time already.

The clouds are different now and the kids have gone with the dog while the sun is out. I take this down because I’ve committed myself to it. It doesn’t have to be good, I just need to do it.

About pinklightsabre

William Pearse publishes memoir, travel journals, poetry and prose, and lives in the Pacific Northwest.
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4 Responses to It happens in the eyes

  1. It’s very easy to get distracted from the writing when blogging. I have to remind myself that it really is two different mediums, but I enjoy the conversation so not quite ready to give up on it. I’m so glad that you are still sharing your stories – it is the kind of descriptive writing I’d love to be adept at.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Hi Michelle – yes, you really have quite the community of people to discuss your writing with. That’s lovely…I’m not sure I’ll ever have that kind of thing myself, but I do enjoy the interaction. And I love your kind words about my writing – thank you. That inspired me to get up and post another. Best, – Bill

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  2. alesiablogs says:

    I am on vacation right now and have struggled with my blogging also. I was encouraged by some fellow bloggers and that was worth its weight in gold. I really like your style and your viewpoints. I think it is also nice someone not so far down the road from me finds passion in life to want to share with others in this medium. Happy Spring to you from Hawaii!

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Bon voyage in Hawaii and great to hear from you Alesia! I hope you are getting some warmth and sun, there. Happy Spring to you too and make the most of your time there. Shut down the computer…thank you for your kind words! – Bill

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