Most of them witches

img_6493In the manner of my mom’s partner Eberhard I held my head under the hand sink and let the cold water run over me and down my torso as I stood and grunted, examined myself and got dressed. It makes sense with all the snow and rain (and mudslides) we had the trails would be covered with run-off: I stopped by the bridge to listen to the falls coming down and the spray, and up we went through the streams crisscrossing our path, threading Cougar Mountain along the ridge lines, a coal seam underneath, jumping over roots and rocks feeling young, swinging my legs like scissors, imagining a chin-up bar in my garage and really getting back into shape, a meat-packing plant with my fists taped hitting a side of beef in the cold like Stallone and seeing my breath, blood on my hands from the beef and me, mixed.

I can’t use earbuds on the trail anymore so I have to play songs in my head, and it was “Buffalo Stance” mashed up with a few others, and I thought about one-hit wonders, how people roll their eyes but I always defend the Modern English and Ocean Blue bands, for that one song everybody wants to hear and for those five minutes it’s perfect; and the song sounded so good I opened the sun roof and turned off the heat so I could condition myself to the cold, and Ginger put her nose up to the air and drank it in: it was a trick I learned from a construction contractor who never wore coats, who just stood outside in the winter in a shirt and I asked him why and he told me, so his body wouldn’t get cold on jobs, it just got used to it.

And back then on that project a few years ago, it was the first time in a long time I’d gotten out of the office which felt good, to just go across the street and think about construction, to watch some guy dig or measure or grapple with real objects unlike me, who made flow charts and pretty-looking slides all jammed full of bullshit, bullshit we spun up in potions and charms, all of us on brooms flying through the hallways talking nonsense, that’s probably how he saw us—but I liked Corey and felt comfortable around him and his cronies, the electrician with the bad knees, guys who’d gotten old fast working overnights but guys I could drink beer with, not guys who asked to see the wine list or needed a glass.

And there was my one hit, if I had to pick one, when I was maybe 10 playing little league: my dad took me to buy a baseball bat and I chose a wooden one because I liked the color (it was red), but all the other kids had aluminum and when you hit the ball, really connected with it, it made a different sound with a wooden bat, a substantial sound, and because it was red it left the balls stained so they looked like blood, like “I was here” on each one I hit: and I got under the ball in one of those pressure moments when it was all up to me and drove it deep into left a line drive and ran like hell around the bases not believing it as everyone on my side jumped up and started shouting and the other team was like oh shit and I got to third and stopped and stood there grinning catching my breath and my mom and dad’s friend Paul Hopstock was there and afterwards we would have gone to the Brass Rail to celebrate or stopped for a Slurpee, it was my one hit. The next game they moved me up to bat third or fourth but it didn’t amount to much.

You couldn’t see much of the mountains from the trail but what little you could was good, and Lily when I took her there last time said it was a blue you could never capture in a painting, it had these shades of indigo that was nice with the snow, parts of the trail mushy like bran cereal, at times the trail narrowed and the branches leaned over it like tented hands, a canopy carpeted in moss—

And afterwards at the bar I sat with bad posture and wet socks, the bartender remembered my beer and I ordered a bowl of chili, broke the saltines and sprinkled them in and threaded it with my spoon, the constant back and forth way my dad does made me miss him, I wished the two of us could go back to that country bar we used to I couldn’t remember the name of…between Kernsville and Kuhnsville…surrounded by farms and dirt roads, tractors in the yards, a taxidermy—

And when the dog and I got home I sat in the part of the yard that gets mottled with the sun through the trees that’s unkempt and mossy with downed branches and with it having snowed so much and then rained so much and now it was sunny and warm and the sun so low everything went iridescent green and psychedelic it was hard to bare, I got the reclining lawn chair out but had to keep moving it to the warm spots with the sun and the dog and cat following me and my beer and we were like pieces on a board game or characters on a sun dial, barely animated and unreal, fixed like felt sheep pinned to an advent calendar to the mossy hillsides barely hanging on, sometimes tilting in my chair and having to rebalance, the roots and bugs coming out and glad for them all—

After Dawn went to bed I stayed up late playing songs, I played Nirvana, The Beatles, The Ocean Blue—I played the Neneh Cherry song again but it didn’t sound as good, its moment had come and gone, now replaced by a thousand more and they each had their own songs.

Coal Creek Falls, Cougar Mountain (Issaquah)

Coal Creek Falls, Cougar Mountain (Issaquah)

About pinklightsabre

William Pearse publishes memoir, travel journals, poetry and prose, and lives in the Pacific Northwest.
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26 Responses to Most of them witches

  1. rossmurray1 says:

    Those crystallized moments of glory. I remember hitting one out of the park in perhaps the only time I did competitive improv, theatersports they called it. That moment when it hangs there and lands and glory rains down on you. And it was really a weak bit, when I look back on it, but it’s about the starts aligning just then, right?

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  2. Tish Farrell says:

    Another fine piece, Mr. Pearse. Also love those opening trees.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Thank you Ms. Farrell! Wish you and G could be with me now in the kitchen. Just got done butchering the hog shoulder so it’s a good time to appear, the gore is gone. I took 2,000 words worth of notes on my phone hiking and playing with the dictation program and then tried making something out of it here. I’m fighting inside the form, not sure why but restless. Having fun trying different things why not? Come round about 4?

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      • Tish Farrell says:

        That hog shoulder sounds so good, Bill. We’ll be round. In spirit anyway. As to fighting inside the form – maybe ask it a question? Out loud. Is this the right place? And if not, where? There must be some sort of spirit guide in that wilderness of yours, and if not, invent them. Then ask. Top of head responses are usually the true ones. At least in some sense. Other suggestion: sometimes ideas about form and so on take a long time to cook – like the hog shoulder 🙂

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  3. Akuokuo says:

    Hope this doesn’t get me banned 🙂 But are the trees the witches? You might like the Buffalo Stance house remix.. don’t give up on Neneh Cherry!

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  4. A human sun dial. Nice. And you got me listening to an old Modern English now …

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  5. 1WriteWay says:

    I love how your mind/memory works and I would have loved to be on that trail with you, although my presence probably would have messed with your dictation. There’s something about hiking in mud and snow that makes you deserve that beer. So, you dictated as you hiked? This one of those fancy apps (Siri?) that will transcribe as you talk? I need to try that sometime.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Hi Marie and thanks! No, the dictation thing I played around with later. Did you ever see the Woody Allen film Crimes & Misdemeanors by any chance? Alan Alda plays a real ass as only he can, and dictates a lot. I think that scarred me from dictating. There’s an unabashed pompousness about that, that if I were being honest, lines the surface of what I do as is, so I don’t need any more help with that…but thanks for reading and I’m glad you enjoy the strange tour through my head. Working things out…using the phone to type notes now vs. notepad and pen, which I’d done for about 20 years, so it’s a big change. Life is good, wishing you the same. Bill

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  7. This is the first time I’ve read one of your blogs. Really enjoyed it. Awesome witchy trees!!!!

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  8. byebyebeer says:

    Really like the part about the red wooden bat leaving a bloody mark on the baseballs. Very cool photo too.

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  9. Well, it was all lovely but I went back and read the baseball paragraph a second time. Wish I’d had a moment like that. At least now I know what it must feel like.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      You probably do have moments like that but they’re buried. I hadn’t thought about that one in forever; it was a deliberate probing so to speak to recall it.

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