Lisbeth Salander will have her reckoning

The upsetting quality of the music I play. The look of my hair after several days without shampoo. The sense I should be outside but don’t feel like it, the look of the snow after it finally seeps into our lawn. The odd bump on one of my toes, the white in my beard. The smell of our bathroom after it’s been cleaned, and the illusion it’s clean from the chemicals. The gap between my daughter and I that only gets wider when we shout. The odd satisfaction I get (and how it takes no time at all) rearranging the sauces, jellies, and spreads in the refrigerator. The pride I have from how much money I make. The dark sense it will ruin me. The distance in alcohol. How hard it is to do push-ups when you’re not in the daily habit of doing them. The joy of going away. The joy of coming back. The dull smear of days when they’ve lost all distinction, and those rare times we see the world for what it really is. The first day it really feels like spring. The joy of getting a good table or a good parking spot when both require luck. The way a deep cut heals itself, and the same with the shrubs and trees as they slowly stand up again after being pressed down with so much snow. How keyboard shortcuts make you look smarter than you are. The satisfaction of fixing something. The childlike look of a dog. The feeling of clean sheets. The symmetry of a good ending, and the feeling of being cheated by a bad one.

About pinklightsabre

William Pearse publishes memoir, travel journals, poetry and prose, and lives in the Pacific Northwest.
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14 Responses to Lisbeth Salander will have her reckoning

  1. kingmidget says:

    All of those things. Life.

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  2. weltschmerz
    No prescription

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  3. Smear is such a great word. Onomatopoeic.

    No cheat-feelings here. Terrific.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Hi Bruce! Been thinking about you and missing your posts, hope alls well and no smears there on your end at VC. Listening to a great, new age radio program now on KEXP called Pacific Notions, you might have a listen!?

      Like

    • pinklightsabre says:

      Nothing tops weldschmerz for good words, though. Imagine myself spitting on the sidewalk after saying that, shaking my head.

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  4. ksbeth says:

    simple and powerful things

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  5. All great. Esp the title tie-in.

    Like

  6. rossmurray1 says:

    The keyboard comment made me laugh. Yup.
    I haven’t done pushups since November. I hope I can restart. Otherwise I’m just going to be a puddle by June.

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