For a period of time I stopped using deodorant and bathing regularly. I got athlete’s foot which is funny, because nothing about me was athletic. I rose and got clothed and made coffee and went online. I sometimes walked to the lake or up the road to retrieve empty trash bins. Winter set in like an abscess, like an infection. The repetition of rain mixed with fog. Our family psychiatrist said that some people need shots of like 10,000 milligrams of vitamin D a day to beat back the depression. I chewed gummies before bed and first thing in the morning, took off my hat on morning walks just to feel the light on my face. Imagined it healed my bruised and battered soul. Was probably wrong about that, but kept on trying.