Song for leavin’

It is remarkable to think, the braids of fate that led me here. Up these Roman steps, past prehistoric geckos padding stone. A life of constellations but so often we wander through the dark and can’t connect the dots. Perhaps it is just the country that brings me peace here, a simpler way to live. For life itself is not much different in the States. Maybe on trips like this we are more aware of how much time we have left. I reread a collection of poems by a poet approaching the end of his life, but I’m not sure why I gravitate towards themes like this—perhaps because the soil is rich. I pocketed an acorn shell to be reminded of my walks here through the forest. The caps fit the acorn tight like a hat, like the Tyrolean ones we kept in the upper bedrooms and wore to beer festivals with pins and feathers. I would regain my love of writing here by remembering. By giving thanks to all the beauty around me. And follow the stream to where it lets out so I would know the way for next time.

I took a long, new way home. It got hot and I had no water but fed on the orchard apples and plums, my hands sticky with stolen grapes. I followed the navigator on my phone down dirt paths and gravel roads, just the sound of birds and far-away tractor engines. Trying to stop time, to stop myself within it. All this smashed fruit on the ground turning brown. I wanted to be back in Tuscany that August when the kids were so small, the fallen figs got stuck in my sandal treads. It was like flipping through pages in a photo book. A leaning red ladder against a tree, the breeze making the leaves swoosh, the sound of an apple hitting the ground like a snowball. All those rows of grapevines, the little brick huts with tiled roofs where they keep their buckets and tools. How they cut the dried vines back and bundle them for kindling when the harvest is done. How I would remember the times we emerged here in November when it was time to go and all was shades of brown and gray and wet.

And when it is my time, I’ll watch the countryside blur as the train whisks away and smile, remembering I was here.

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16 replies

  1. I can almost smell the earth here Bill. Fecund with nature and inevitable change.

    That last line, it could be from a poem about final farewells, a good place to aim for.

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    • A good word fecund. We don’t happen by it much do we? I almost sent you my coordinates when I was out walking yesterday. Unreal, how the app on my phone can lead me to exact places to turn through farms like that. A bit odd, and unnatural. Enjoy the day Bruce! I am blissing out to some early morning Eno here on Eberhard’s back patio. Hope the season is good to you today.

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  2. I’m now kidding myself that I am in ‘rich soil’ territory. Thanks. I like that phrase, as indeed I like this lovely ruminative piece.
    The accompanying picture, it could be two of my clients today but they are even richer soil.

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  3. Ruminative, as in deeper layers of thinking and synthesis and, yes, interconnection.

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  4. I’m vicariously enjoying the German day, thanks Bill.

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  5. You’ve been treating us to some especially fine writing over in Germany, Bill. Many chords struck: memories/time layers/earth sensations/love/arrivals/departures/gains and losses…

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    • And I’m so pleased to hear you say that and know that you’ve been reading this week Tish, thank you! Yes for better or for worse I’ve found my way back to some “prosey” writing styles and it’s fun. Happy to hear it’s struck a chord with you. Sending you greetings from Deutschland! Enjoy your day, stay cool. Anticipating your coming late summer-fall posts with relish 🥰

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  6. I agree with Tish. Your time in Germany has opened up a lit-spigot in you, Bill. Sweet stuff. The figs stuck in sandal treads …

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  7. For some reason, I’m reminded of the old Supertramp song, Take The Long Way Home, only with loamy soil, sticky hands, and oaks speaking German.

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