The irregularities

By Bill Pearse on April 29, 2025 • ( 4 )

Mom said the irregularities got worse with age and so she carried a nail file everywhere. I think uneven nails was distracting for her. She’d remedy it right away with a quick file. I was surprised by how good it felt to scream. A snort in the car after a hike, just a post-workout grunt, would lapse right into a full-fledged scream. But always in the bubble of the car so I wouldn’t upset anyone. I understood what she meant by irregularities. Something was always off. We were like a cat constantly tweaked by a setting needing adjusted. People like that made for good editors. But when I walked in the forest nothing ever felt off. It’s like my attention got sucked into a beautiful vortex, it all drained away. It shouldn’t come as a surprise screaming could be therapeutic, rock singers made a career out of it. They said it could release endorphins and lower cortisol. A quick blast might lift your mood “but this is not a long-term solution.”