They packed the gaps with sand and mud

Leaving Germany late October for 90 days in the UK

Leaving Germany late October for 90 days in the UK

Old, half-timbered houses with uneven beams buckling and bent into one another like two drunks steadying themselves. Everything on its side, lead pipe handrails caught in their footings, ivy-choked trees. Pale morning birdsong, footpaths leading down the valley ending in mud. Mom fiddling in her purse in the passenger’s seat trying to conceal what she’s doing with a piece of cardboard, cleaning her teeth, a trick she learned from Eberhard.

Our next and last extended stop in the UK in Bath, but not really Bath, a village outside of Bath, a place called Combe Down, good advice after a week in London. Allowing myself to get rankled by someone blowing a horn at an intersection as I let a pedestrian by and then feeling sorry for myself I can’t find parking in the pedestrian zone and then wanting to kill all the pedestrians, they think they can just walk out in front of you, and when we finally get there they don’t carry non-alcoholic beer and there really is no end to all the reasons you can feel sorry for yourself once you decide to.

The kids watch five hours of Pride and Prejudice, the BBC adaptation, then ask in the morning if they can watch it again.

The ghost of spring blooms on the bushes in the valley the color of moths still holding on makes everything look ashen.

The landlord says the other tenants are permanent unlike us and they have jobs, we won’t even see them. Their footsteps across the gravel every morning around 6 go crunch crunch crunch, the same time the radiators come on. Experimenting with lucid dreaming, blowing stuff out of my pipes, faces falling in the random pattern of leaves.

Lily makes fun of my hat which is made out of fur and possibly real with flappy ears, says I’m embarrassing her, to which I remind her of all the years I had to watch her play soccer or do ballet recitals, and how that must have felt.

Outside the museum is littered with tourists moving in and out of each other posing with extendable sticks and phones and we read about Detachment in the Indian, east-Asian wing, their gods and deities, the idea of nirvana and extinguishing oneself, having permission to die at last and just leave, banking enough good deeds through karma, which they put in italics, and outside our flat in the morning it’s the sound of the same footsteps hurrying across the gravel on their way to the train station, the tenants upstairs we never see, and onstage the actor who plays the crocodile in Peter Pan lopes across the stage with a pocket watch representing something more ominous than a crocodile, time, swallowing us all in uneven pieces, in lengths — and at last I’m alone in the Egyptian wing in a knot of tourists and different languages while Dawn and the kids see all they can see in our remaining 15 minutes, surrounded by mummies in glass cases with captions and some of them names, descriptions of the process and how they preserved the organs, they packed the gaps with sand and mud to keep the air out and so do we with our compression sacks and Ziploc bags, folding down sweaters and tightening the cinches, fitting it all in the back of the car with some space to still see out the mirrors in the rear.

The four of us in an old cottage with stone and exposed beams passing between pages in books, cups of tea, playlists and plastic cities with made up voices and names.

And I play with time too, pretending I can, how important it is to pretend, and how time is all we have until we don’t, and how much of it is really ours to keep.

 

About pinklightsabre

William Pearse publishes memoir, travel journals, poetry and prose, and lives in the Pacific Northwest.
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12 Responses to They packed the gaps with sand and mud

  1. rossmurray1 says:

    Rebirth as a sort of punishment until you live a good enough life to be worthy of dying for good. What a concept.

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  2. Time keeps on slippin’, slippin’, slippin’…

    Great post. Sounds like the British Museum. What loot!

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      You got it Kevin, thank you. Looking forward to catching up with Gatecrash. Enjoying some much needed time now with books and the outdoors, decompressing from all that stimulation in London too, pooped. Doo-doo-de-do….do-do-doo-do…

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  3. Dina Honour says:

    That museum is enormous, isn’t it? We spent a day there and the highlight was a volunteer, an elderly gentleman, who noticed my boys’ fascination with weapons and talked to them at great length, but with great vigor and energy, about stone age weaponry. His passion was contagious and my boys were enraptured. I was looking forward to a cup of tea and cake (how very British), but we stayed for ages, listening and learning. How much longer are you in exile from Germany for?

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      Great scene that is Dina…thank you. Quite overwhelming, all of it. And long days starting and ending on the tube, a real gas it was. We have about one more week, can’t wait to be back in the Schengen again!

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  4. Using “littered” so close to “tourists” indicates a certain disdain for them. You get a lot of talk like that here in NYC, too. I don’t mind them. If you surrounded by tourists, you might be doing something interesting. Not all the time. But a lot of the time.

    Many years ago the actor William Hurt sat in front of me at a play. He took a book of matches out of his pocket, opened it and cleaned his teeth with the corner. Fantastic.

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    • pinklightsabre says:

      I love the actor William Hurt — I forget we’re tourists too, even ‘accidentally,’ ha! But funny, I put ourselves at a higher rung than most tourists, which is pathetic in and of itself. It’s good you maintain that attitude. We’re in a country setting now, which is a good antidote to London; it’s amazing how tiring it can be from all the visual stimulation. We saw three plays there, one of them The Curious Incident of the Dog at Night, seen through the eyes of an autistic boy, and in one of the scenes he describes what it’s like for him to ‘see’ everything whereas most other people simply ‘glance.’ He described the detail in looking out the window from the train — I think our kids, and some grown-ups with more acute senses for detail can relate to that in some sense…although we’re lucky we can turn it off too, and retreat to the country for a time. No tourists, just us.

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  5. daveply says:

    Drunken houses, death to pedestrians, Pride and Prejudice, lucid dreaming, Asian and Egyptian museums, Peter Pan, and time. You get around.

    Or maybe it’s all just a lucid dream.

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  6. ksbeth says:

    and containing time is like trying to hold water in your hands.

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